Here I am world! Never thought I would look forward to having my picture taken or even be remotely inspired to share it with the world, but there you have it. And I LOVE it! Lexi (here here!) is such a calm and caring person to work with, and she totally made me feel at ease with a giant camera inches from my face. I felt like I could do anything and never have single bad shot, which of course is my idealized version, but I’m happy to report that I never did have to see those gawky half open, teeth baring smile moments. So that definitely makes for a happier me. It was a sunrise shoot, and the morning air had a fragrance as beautiful as my dreams. We walked along a small ravine of sorts, a wash would probably be more accurate, and when we hit the flat ground I was in such a peaceful space. There’s something about early morning, the perspective of newness and possibility, where dreams are allowed to breathe and test their wings. I honestly have not had a morning so full of promise since my youthful days of rising at dawn to meet up with friends for a morning run at the park. What glorious times we had! And it was in the stillness of the morning air that I realized what I’ve been missing by not taking in these quiet moments.
I am by nature a night owl, but there’s something about waking up refreshed and not groggy. Honestly speaking, my night owl tendencies don’t really lead to productivity, just a general wasting of time. I do dream and ponder, but it isn’t with a clear mind, so inspiration tends to become another unfulfilled project, the weight of its unfinished/un-begun presence mocking the dreams I started off with. With all that said, I am convinced that if I used my time a little more wisely (read: sleeping v. pinterest) greater plans and finished projects would make an even happier me. I guess I just assumed that being a single mom meant you started the day tired and ended it avoiding the next day’s tasks. Even typing it sounds depressing. But I’m not going to do or think that anymore.
So take a look at this smile and know that behind it is a heart that’s learning to beat a happy tune … again <3